I still can't believe that it's been four years ago......

Hello All,
 Well I thought I would never even myself say this, but I'm really been weeping on the inside a lot. Lately as you know I have had the lost of two very important people in my life via the cycle known as death, but today itself hits me Matt like a sledge hammer because it was on this date four years ago that I lost one very neat persons I ever knew it was my dad Micheal Joe Byrd and I can still remember I was standing in my kitchen looking at my own little photo album that I had from when I graduated from my high school of Hanford High school and was just staring so intensely at this very image 

of my father knowing he was at Kadlac hospital getting ready to be moved to a Hopsice  place in Yakima, Washington to wait out his remaining few days of life after having the Parkinson disease since the early part of two thousand and two, so he was already in pain no matter what because of it and as I was thinking of him I could feel myself tearing up while looking at that thinking endless what ifs. It was a little after eight and my mom was on the other end of the phone and she told me what my sister had told her of his easy passing into God's open grace. Now to be totally honest my dad was not a strong believer in knowing God at all, yet as I sit here listening to the song by Belinda Carlisle known simply as "Heaven is a place on earth" on a rare compact disc album of hers that I have, reminds me of the part of life that my dad loved as much as he did love his time of being born on earth,that one thing can be summed up right here 
he was a true sportsman. If he wasn't out hunting ducks he was out fishing somewhere till he had the qinch for understanding life's challenging goal was won by catching the prize of wildlife. My dad was very much a man who loved life by his work as well, not to say he loved only that part of being here on earth he had three wonderful kids who may not of understood him all the time because of him loving just what he thought was important, we three offspring of Micheal Joe Byrd Matt, Micheal,and Kylie all had our moments that were both good and bad at times. Yet we all knew he loved us even when it was hard pressed for our dad to say the words that any kid wants to know from the heart of all parents, that of course being  "I Love You" and even though the man I knew as Dad is not psychical here to ask the questions of meaningfulness that matter about his own looks on life, I know he is a part of my here and now by being in my dreams at times still showing the way to the meaning of life in his spiritual way and at the end of every November fourth since that time four years ago are best remembered with words and thoughts of forgotten love that helps remember every life is lived for a given propose to be loved no matter what way he or she leaves......it's about understanding you mattered most to me dad when even you didn't know the words to say you reached out in your meaningful ways.......
 your still in my heart being loved, Matt Byrd your son